How My Miscarriage Ruined My Sex Life & Why I'm Taking It Back
Though I don't like to admit it, my miscarriage rocked my world in more ways than I thought even possible. One of those impacts happened in the bedroom and it almost ruined my marriage. What people don't tell you about a miscarriage is that it can really make you feel inadequate in many ways and it made me feel like I was hardly a woman. Women are made to have babies and my body couldn't even do that right. I let it eat me to the point of my isolating myself and even after the go ahead from the doctor to resume sex I refused for the longest time. When we did start again it was so robotic and boring. I didn't like to be touched anymore and felt like shit about it. Then came the time to start trying again and every month was a disappointment leading me to more depression, isolation and sex was a chore. Literally a chore. I would look at my fertility chart, tell Lawrence the days we had to have sex and that was the extent of it. Sometimes even then we didn't h...